The atmosphere has shifted here...............
Much more relaxed than last week............in some ways....a bit of nervous energy flying around......
Nice not having any pressure for Small Man re: school.......
he has relaxed a lot over the last few days, and has 'gone with it' sleeping a fair bit...........so good for the body to recover and repair.....
Z16 is a bit unsettled..........he adores his 'little' brother.......
Z16 has a few 'tics' that come and go - pretty minor....and he can control them at school....but in the last week they have been fairly bad at home.....I'm trying to keep him as relaxed as possible......
He hasn't had enough sleep (in my opinion) the last few nights - switching over to daylight savings threw him out a lot - he's sensitive to change like that......I made him go to bed early last night..............
I think the combination of work/school all of the grade 10 pressure.....and worrying about his brother - more that he will be away for a night or two I think is the concern, he hates it when his brother isn't here, it's lovely that they are so close.
My mobile has been going flat out with messages, but that's o.k. - it's nice to know people care - I have had my doubts at times, not from my friends, but family.
Yes, a few people may be feeling a bit guilty - after some of the things that have been said regarding Small Man.
I'm not going to add to it - their own conscience will sort them out. I can write how I feel here....and let it go.......it's not my guilt...I don't need to wear it!!
Just hope they learn from it....and don't ever doubt me again, and if they do - keep their big opinions to themselves - and perhaps have a good hard look at themselves before passing judgment on a 12 year old boy......and lecturing him that he won't live til he's 20 if he keeps going to way he is.....all the while 'the way he was going' was out of his control.....
And as for the people that look at me when we are out like I'm an abusive mother that over feeds her child.....BITE ME!
If that was the case, why is Z16 like a match with the wood scraped off? not really, he's just right, maybe slightly under weight...
Perhaps I feed one, starve the other!!!
Enough rambling,
better go and get ready.....
G
xx
4 comments:
It is hard. No doubt these people were thinking they were being helpful, but not realising that their comments were not helping.
Some people just have no idea. I get looks when I go out with all the kids, they think Step-son is mine, he is 15! I get the "slutty" looks, especially from older people.
Stuff em!!
Good Luck xxxx
I think I'm more angry that decided for themselves what was going on (that he just didn't want to go to school and was 'pulling the wool over my eyes) rather than listen to me, or look at the facts, or consider another possibility.
Anyway, I won't hold onto the hurt and anger over it, it won't change what happened, and will only make me bitter!
Interesting how people just assume isn't it.
I get a few funny looks when I'm with Z16 - not that I look particularly too young to have him, but he's taller than me.
Because my boys look nothing alike, and obviously I was reasonably young when I had Z16 they then assume that the boys have different fathers - a few people have been cheeky enough to ask me this directly - RUDE!
Sort out their own lives I reckon!
G
xx
p.s. waiting for the doctor to ring me back - definitely groundhog day!!!!
great post- truthful and honest- which are not always the same thing- hope all continues to improve......Lisa x
Thanks Lisa xx
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