~Nope~

Not much to say tonight, really.

Saw the ENT today to confirm that I am definitely not having bits of my throat/tongue/palette cut out...pleased we sorted THAT out

He tried to encourage me to continue with the exercise/calorie counting I tried for at least 2 months with absolutely NO RESULT WHATSOEVER......how disheartened do you think I felt at the end of it having lost not a single kg?
No normal person that goes from somewhat sedentary with a reasonable diet to 1.5 - 2.5km per day on the treadmill and a reduction in calories loses nothing at all, they just bloody don't.
I have no idea wtf is going on with me and I doubt I ever will.
Maybe I will feel motivated to keep going I don't know :(
Not sure why anyone would bother with those results.

Anyway I have organised the mouthguard with the dentist and have a few appointments lined up to get it happening.

No news on anything for Small Man.

He hasn't been too well over the last week, chest/sinus infection has made him feel pretty average.

No job for Possum yet. 

Yep, I'm very exciting tonight. Possibly tired and over it all!

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~Breaks, brakes~

I am giving myself a bit of a break today (mentally) as I seem to be either physically busy or mentally busy

The last week or so has been stressful with beds collapsing, immunisations, people quitting, new starters, more people quitting, big dentist appointments, Big A away for 2 weeks doing a course for work, trying to find jobs for Possum to apply for....
Not to mention the 'Million Paws Walk' that turned out to be 5km long, which would have been fine except I had my 'MC Hammer' Bonds pants on, the tops of your inner thighs rub together after a km or two.....ohhh the chafe.....ohhh owww...the dog loved her walk though, and plenty of money was raised for the RSPCA :)

Yesterday I caught up on some little jobs that were hanging over me, that medibank private claim that I should have done months ago but didn't because they didn't send me a dual claim form and I don't go into town much to get a claim form and you need a password to log in to the medibank website to get a claim form and Big A has the password and was away and it all got far too hard for my ADD brain to get around

In the end I rang Medibank to make sure my $1200 upcoming dentist bill was going to be claimable, and the nice young fellah on the phone emailed me a claim form, so that was done and dusted, posted....done.....next....

Now I have to get a specialist referral letter so that I can claim for my mouthguard, yeah sure specialist appointments are just growing on trees, so had to cancel the appointment I had this afternoon until I can get another letter.....

I also had photos for my Grandma that I had been meaning to sort out and post for months, did that too yesterday

And a new distributor agreement that needed signing and posting to H/O.....done

And Mum's birthday yesterday....all sorted, gifted and visited

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I had one of those 'OMG I can't do this any more' moments with work last night :(

Long story, I won't bore you with the details but I once again put forward some concerns via email about a recent decision that affects my team in a negative way, in fact I emailed several people and not one replied, and it's been weeks.

We now have a forum for discussion on the website and the same topic was raised, so I added my two cents worth, very politely.
The national sales manager responded and suggested I discuss with my manager, his tone was dismissive and he claimed to have 'answered this before' not sure what he meant there but he hasn't answered me personally directly on it.
I pointed out that I haven't been answered at all, and how the decision affects my team etc, and that I sent a copy of my concerns to my manager at the same time, and he hasn't responded either. 
The fact that he has only rung me twice since January doesn't make me want to run to him with any issues either.
I have been with this company for 13 years now and the way it's being run is disturbing at present.
I just felt so sad and defeated last night. 
The lack of support, people quitting (other managers), stress, changes, there will be no-one left soon!


I guess on top of the uncertainty with Small Man still, and all the different goings on recently I sort of stopped in my tracks for a bit.


I am going to just calm down with my expectations of my team as far as the new website.
I was wanting everything to be 'right' - but it's never going to be, so bugger it, I will do the best with the info they give me, it's not worth the stress.
I am usually really easy going and don't worry so much about the finer points. 
I think all of the changes have pissed me off so much that I was worrying over the small stuff. 
Not going to any more!!


I must try and get back to taking each day as it comes......finish what I start (most of the time)....


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~Clear As Mud~

Nothing to report

Still a lot of red tape, but we are getting somewhere at least - I suppose.....maybe.....

I need to speak with Dr Matt first before making any decision

Good job I am patient eh

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I'm SO not going to sleep tonight......

Long story short, cos I know you love that ;)

The surgeon's PA is supposed to be calling me tomorrow (which is actually today now) and letting me know how long we would have to wait on the public waiting list for Small Man's operation, now that funding has been approved etc (that's what they've been doing)....

Basically is he going to go back to the start of the list after the last stuff up with paperwork being returned, or will they find a heart and put him up the list.......

We have decided if it is longer than 6 months from now, we will go the private option, pay the gap and just get it done....

She actually said on the phone Monday - 'He could have it done NEXT WEEK' if we opt for fully private....surely she was kidding (?).....

If we go the public option the $3,000 would reallly come in handy for the trip over, follow up appointments etc....

I have a strategy with them now, if they say they are going to call me back on a certain day and don't, I give them until 3pm and then I call them.....they're not getting away this time....I don't think these people realise just how much people like me/us are hanging on these calls :/

So now I wait.

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~Hitting The Wall~

I'm tired today

I've hit a bit of a wall in all departments

Unfocused, can't be bothered, don't care.......

I'm sure it will pass

Quickly would be good

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Yesterday was a bit stressful for Small Man
We had an appointment already booked with our GP to discuss the ultrasound results and what to do next.

He didn't really say what the result was, and the rude bastards from imaging had said it was difficult to get an image because of Small Man's 'body composition' or some attempt at pretending to be polite about his weight.
Perhaps if the lazy cow that did the ultrasound actually gave a stuff she would have got him to stand up, like they did the first time he had an ultrasound.  I could feel some 'assuming' going on in the ultrasound room that day.
Whatever.
Assume what you like, but do your job love.....

Anyway our GP wanted SM to have some further blood tests (mostly liver function) before sending him to a gastroenterologist.  Unfortunately the lovely gastro doc that I saw a few years back has gone :(
So we'll need to find a new one.

We went for the blood test after our appointment.  SM has been a bit nervous before blood tests after the last half a dozen he has had weren't the best, missed veins, having to start again, having to get someone else in to 'have a go' etc - it never used to bother him before all of this
So once again the nurse couldn't find his vein after poking around a bit on his right side, so then had to start again on the left side.
That was ok, all done, no problem.

We then had to go back to the GP's rooms to see one of the other nurses to fill out his 'care plan' paperwork which took quite a while.
We have opted for 'no appointments' for now - we can have exercise physiology, occupational therapy etc etc
None of that is any good while he is focusing on school.
His chronic fatigue is such that an appointment one day usually means no school the next day - so that's 2 days missed for one appointment.

Also - he is due for his 'grade 10' vaccination.
No big deal for any healthy kid but I am concerned.
There have been medications that our GP won't give him because of his liver function, but he is happy to give him a vaccination.
I'm sure he knows what he is doing and that I am just overly concerned.
Lets hope so.


We finally got home after nearly two hours at the doctors surgery and the phone rings - they didn't get enough blood for his tests - so now we have to go back down there again today and go through it again.
Which would be easier if he wasn't exhausted.
Looks like it's going to be later today.

Big A is away at the moment doing a course for work.
The course is in Burnie so he is given accomodation etc from Monday to Friday for the next two weeks.
I am thinking I might go down and spend the night tomorrow night.
It's approximately an hour and a half's drive but tomorrow fits in with Small Man for school etc.
I will see how I go tomorrow.

I need to get it together today first!


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