Friends Confirmed....

It's true - when you have a worrying time in your life, your true friends are the ones that are there for you.

Haven't I found that out in the last fortnight!

Did I really need to confirm this - no, not really.
There have been a few that knew what was happening with Small Man, and didn't even bother to ring/ msg /or email me........

But to those that have maintained constant contact - thank you.
Even though none of you will ever actually read this - I give so many thanks to the universe for each of you.

Sure makes the Xmas card list easier this year - he he!

I think back to some years ago when I couldn't handle the thought of being alone, in the 'spending time alone' sense - and now sometimes I long for it.....I have found solitude a balancing time, rather than climbing the walls for company. Maybe we get more secure in this way when we get very old like me (he he!).

Speaking of company, my 20 year school reunion is coming up on the 17th November - OMG - the memories.......the fear......the 'what ifs'.........
I really only have contact with three friends from school, only one was in my year......
I'm going, I'm actually looking forward to it......and I think everyone will be feeling the same.
I just hope a lot of 'baggage' is left at the door, and the night is about catching up with each other, rather than a big 'dragging up of the past' episode.

I was a little bit wild in High School, well different to 99% of the other girls anyway. I had my own style that was semi goth/'EMO' (as they call it these days)- and was a bit old for my age. I moved out of home at 16 to come up to 'town' and work, and didn't go back. Looking back I was far too young to be out on my own, but didn't want to be stuck in a small town with all the horrendous gossip and lack of opportunity (for me any way). I made a lot of mistakes back then, and had a lot of emotional issues - but accept it was all part of my life's journey, and there are few I regret.

Ironically I met The Big A - who was in Tassie studying air traffic control -(that kinda went wrong), and he ended up staying here, with me, and working at the very place that my Dad worked for 25 years, my Mum worked there too for a few years, I went there for work experience, my brother works there, and so does my Step Father...in the very town I was running from.......!!!!

Hi 'Bewinda' - hope you got a chance to check in and read my blog over the weekend - G xxx

Better go - roasts to cook, clothes to throw in the dryer to make it look like I iron!!!!!

G
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Thanks Universe!

I asked for Small Man's sleep test to happen quickly,
and received a phone call this morning to say there has been a cancellation Monday (next week) and that he can can take the appointment if it's convenient, my word it is!

He's fallen a bit flat since coming home, which I was afraid of.

Have had to cancel physio twice, he just isn't up to it, and a bit sick of all the jiggery-pokery of the last few weeks.
He is also a bit run down, with two cracking ulcers in his mouth - I went to the chemist and asked for the most kick a$$ stuff they had - it was making him very irritable and short tempered.

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Did some channeled writing the other night, interesting - I can't even remember what I wrote, and haven't looked at it again - the messages were from Lillian, who called herself 'Lilly'.......
One part was about Small Man, the other about the Almighty - but the specifics are a blur.

I might post it later, for some reason I don't feel like reading it just now.

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So today I am tackling the house of rack and ruin, I haven't been able to focus on much the last few days, just not knowing what was happening, and when.......

Have catalogues to deliver later - haven't done a drop for two weeks, not setting a good example there eh!
The walk will do me good, all of the walking around the corridors of the LGH have toned me up a fraction - so would like to keep it going.....

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I have decided I need a list of links to everyones blog,
if I can add you to my list let me know!

G
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Let me go home.....

Just another quick hello!
Boring without pictures, I know - not inspired this evening.

My baby is home from the hospital for the night,
we have to go back up tomorrow for another day of 'opinions', physio etc etc.
He is still technically 'booked in' and his bed will still be there, otherwise the doctors that are coming tomorrow won't be available for several months - terrific eh!..hopefully they won't change their minds and want to keep him in.

We are going private for the sleep study, the waiting list as a public patient was 4-5 weeks.....see I whinged about not being able to use the private health that I think we personally sponsor - and voila!

I nearly fell of the chair to read that Lisa has Lichen Sclerosis too - I just thought it was me and my bizarre, random afflictions that no-one's ever heard of!!!
Trust me, if you google it, you'll squirm.
No wonder the 'bedroom aerobics' are fewer and further between - it takes a few days to recover..........
Dumb A$$ doctor x5978 said there was nothing you can do about it.
Came home, looked it up and found out how badly you MUST have steroid cream......
also that it must be checked because the percentage of vulval cancer increases tenfold.
So reassuring to put you health in these peoples hands sometimes.......


Anyhoo,
Small Man and his big brother have settled down to sleep - George has recovered from the total stress and separation anxiety he's suffered with his best mate away for nearly a week.
- load of washing x9296989 is almost done (didn't have to worry about Small Man's washing they had a washing machine and dryer for his stuff on the ward - very handy) - so there's my cue to go to bed!!!

G
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Here, but not

Just flying past to say Hi.

Have been up at the hospital from 9am - 9pm most days - sometimes longer.

Finally getting somewhere,

Small Man has reasonably severe sleep apnoea - he is sleeping on a monitor up there and will see the respiratory specialist Monday, to be fitted for a mask etc and will be sleeping with a 'cpap' thingy, like a ventilator.
This is responsible for much of his fatigue, moods, weight.....it can affect the appetite centre of the brain.
I dread to think what may have happened if they hadn't found it..........as he set the alarm off on his machine many times the other night........

Aside from this we still have the liver specialist to give us his opinion, they are doing a teleconference and presenting small mans case to other doctors around the state to see what they think also......
he will probably be in hospital until Tuesday, at this stage.

G
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Boring As Bat S*%t!!

It's true!!!
Couldn't find a picture of bat s*%t -
actually didn't look for one......but I would be as boring as it, I promise!!! Thought ye olde butterfly was much nicer!!

Am OVER the LGH and the stuffing about - just SOOOO glad I throw all of that $$ into private health insurance for what - nothin!!!
No, he didn't get in today - waited from 9.30am til 1.30pm for my call that was meant to come through in 'half an hour or so'........to let me know yay or neigh - I ended up ringing back again - Small Man was getting anxious.
Good job I'm patient............Big A would've been on the phone at 10.30am!!
So after all of that I'm TAKING HIM IN at 9.30am tomorrow, to admissions............

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My team has had a splendid week of sales - $11,583 to be precise - WOW!!!
Should keep the ogre off my back for a while......won't hold my breath though!!!!
A few new starters has helped a lot towards this.......hope they stay keen and motivated.

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Actually did some gardening on the weekend, not that you'd notice - only about ten years work left to do out there!! He he!
Certain Australian Cattle dogs like to help, not naming any names ZARA.
She has been known to follow along behind me and unplant what I have planted - it's so rewarding.........

Big A's parents want to come over and have his mothers 60th birthday - HERE - HA! In our picturesque gardens........WTF!
Saves us a trip over there I guess - but I mean really........they'll be so drunk they won't notice.....and that'll be just getting off the plane ....haw haw...cracking myself up tonight!!!
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Better go then,

G
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Sick, sick sick.....

It's true....
Everything DOES happen for a reason.....
By 4pm Wednesday afternoon I had a raging fever of 38.7 degrees......
Would have been no good to Small Man at all....
Would have had to stay away from the hospital........could not have coped with that!!!

I must allow myself to be steered along every path, and not fight against it......
this was absolute proof!

Slightly better today, but sitting here sweating and making many typo's and little sense!!!

So better go........
and do nothing.......

G
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No Go....

No go again today.

Monday.

Have to ring and find out where to take him, at least he's actually booked in for Monday.

Trying not to be frustrated, doesn't help anything.

Just have to switch the brain gears back into 'not going' mode......

G
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Atmosphere....

The atmosphere has shifted here...............


Much more relaxed than last week............in some ways....a bit of nervous energy flying around......

Nice not having any pressure for Small Man re: school.......
he has relaxed a lot over the last few days, and has 'gone with it' sleeping a fair bit...........so good for the body to recover and repair.....

Z16 is a bit unsettled..........he adores his 'little' brother.......
Z16 has a few 'tics' that come and go - pretty minor....and he can control them at school....but in the last week they have been fairly bad at home.....I'm trying to keep him as relaxed as possible......
He hasn't had enough sleep (in my opinion) the last few nights - switching over to daylight savings threw him out a lot - he's sensitive to change like that......I made him go to bed early last night..............
I think the combination of work/school all of the grade 10 pressure.....and worrying about his brother - more that he will be away for a night or two I think is the concern, he hates it when his brother isn't here, it's lovely that they are so close.

My mobile has been going flat out with messages, but that's o.k. - it's nice to know people care - I have had my doubts at times, not from my friends, but family.

Yes, a few people may be feeling a bit guilty - after some of the things that have been said regarding Small Man.
I'm not going to add to it - their own conscience will sort them out. I can write how I feel here....and let it go.......it's not my guilt...I don't need to wear it!!

Just hope they learn from it....and don't ever doubt me again, and if they do - keep their big opinions to themselves - and perhaps have a good hard look at themselves before passing judgment on a 12 year old boy......and lecturing him that he won't live til he's 20 if he keeps going to way he is.....all the while 'the way he was going' was out of his control.....

And as for the people that look at me when we are out like I'm an abusive mother that over feeds her child.....BITE ME!
If that was the case, why is Z16 like a match with the wood scraped off? not really, he's just right, maybe slightly under weight...

Perhaps I feed one, starve the other!!!

Enough rambling,
better go and get ready.....

G
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~~~Groundhog Day~~~

Today is going to be like Monday all over again.......
only it's Wednesday.......gee I'm onto it today eh!

Ringing the paediatrician again between 9am - 10am this morning to see if he has organised a bed for Small Man........

It seems to pointless pouring all of this money into private health insurance..........when you actually need to use it all of the facilities etc are at the LGH......

Either way, as long as we get the result....I could care less!

Fingers crossed,

G
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eBay Lunatic!!!!

I just HAD to share this one with you.

Thanks so much Sev for your input!

I'll post the emails in the order received/sent......UNBELIEVABLE!!!

I lost my patience.
Doesn't happen that often but boy she picked the wrong day to 'F' me off!
This is all over a shirt she was trying to get a refund from me for it, as she reckons it had been home dyed.........

Sunday - 11.57am...
"Why did you not tell me this shirt had been home dyed????? It has ruined my suede handbag and white pants after it got wet!!!! Now it is all splotchy and irregular Not happy - pls respond asap."

Sunday 2.37pm - I replied with....

Hi ****** – home dyed?

It wasn’t home dyed – as you would probably notice the tag/s doesn’t have any dye on it,
it would be difficult to dye the shirt without dyeing the tag– it is possibly just dye run, as the shirt had only been washed once or twice….
if I was aware that it was still running factory dye I would have let you know – and apologise that this has happened.

What would you like me to do?

Monday - 4.10pm

"Hi Gina,

Thanks for your quick reply.

The tag actually does have dye on it - I have 4 of these shirts from Country Road and love them - hence buying another on Ebay! I have compared the tags and it has definitely been dyed. I am so annoyed, not only that the shirt is now off colour but that it ruined my handbag and my skirt!

I would expect a return of at least some of my money.

I look forward to hearing from you."

Monday 4.40pm I replied....

"When I posted the shirt it definitely didn’t have dye on it – also if you look at the photo the contrast stitching on the inside of the shirt is as it should be – contrasting – if the shirt had been hand dyed it would have dyed the stitching as well.
I have pasted a photo of the neckline below for you…..

I have been selling on eBay for 7 years, with 99.9% positive feedback –

I would never intentionally risk this over a shirt, especially not in this way.

In your last email you claimed it was a handbag and white PANTS that were ruined, now you are saying it’s a skirt…..…….

So I’m getting a bit suspicious about your claim I must say.

What would you think????"

Monday 5.30pm -

"The fact of the matter, Gina, is that the shirt had been dyed. Was it your own or did you get it from someone else? You crap on about your ebay selling record - did you actually have a look at mine? Why the hell would I bother to complain about a shirt that I love which cost $40? It's nothing but the principle.

The reason I mixed up what I was wearing is that we have just moved house and have crap everywhere. My mother was here from Melbourne so I ducked out for a swim while she watched my kids. That's when I was wearing the pants. The water made the shirt bleed all over my pants and PRADA handbag!!! I got home and threw them into a pile of clothes on the floor and they have also dyed the skirt they landed on. I will send you pictures but at the moment I can't find the recharger to the digital camera."

So now I'm MAD!

Really MAD! So I wrote back with......

"Given that you have chosen to reply in this manner – as you say over a $40 shirt – you’ll get nothing from me.

If you are going to be so stupid as to put a wet, near new shirt next to white clothing I’m not going to be out of pocket over it.

Oh and not to mention the PRADA handbag – very impressive…..it was a SUEDE handbag originally……gee what else did it ruin, your carpet???????

Anything else you want to add to your list?????It’s growing by the minute.

Carry on like this with any other seller and see how long your WHOPPING feedback of what, 213 lasts - WOW.

I was quite prepared to listen to this crap until you became condescending, as well as a liar.

Don’t bother sending pictures, I’m not interested."

I received this response - to which I have left her negative feedback - so she can PRADA that!!!!!!

“Well Geeena, what a delight you are..... of course Prada has NEVER made suede handbags, have they????

You carry on your little life selling things on EBAY....it, for me, was never about the money!”

I could have responded - with something along the lines of "I will - as long as my customers on EBay aren't idiots" but I didn't - no point dragging it out any further! So I responded with "I will, thank you".

People like her make eBay less attractive! Good job they only come along occasionally! *sigh*........

G

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GREAT....................

Great.....the LGH is short staffed due to a flu outbreak....and are only taking emergency admittances....
We do have private health insurance, but the doc wants him in the LGH........

So now have to ring Wednesday morning.......

I could go back to bed now,
have been running round like a headless chook for the last few days getting prepared......

Oh well, nothing I can do about it, today just wasn't meant to be the day....
still frustrating though.......

G
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Nervous, pleased, nervous, excited, nervous!

Who knows what today will bring.....
I am nervous, then pleased, then relieved, then nervous, then excited........

I think the worst bit, will be if he gets a bed today, and I have to leave him there tonight.

I just don't trust anyone with him.......after all that's happened.........
It's been just he and I - and I'm the only one that hasn't doubted him.......

I'm sure he'll be fine.......
I just worry that he'll be scared..........

G
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Small Man.....

We saw the paediatrician yesterday..................

Small Man needs to go into hospital for a few days.
He needs to see a liver specialist as his liver isn't functioning properly....

He may need lap band surgery, to give his liver a break, and help reduce his weight so that he can feel better....and start living again....this would be impossible for him to do on his own as his liver is enlarged and he has what is called 'fatty liver'.
He had gained 7kgs since we last went........
The doctor is going to give him a trial on xenical in hospital too - fancy that!

He didn't react too well to any of this yesterday and was quite angry and upset for a while.
He really lashed out at me in the car, which is completely understandable.
He wouldn't talk to me about it for some time after we got home.
Once he had given it some thought, and after a few gentle suggestions from me about getting my healthy little boy back (even though he is 10cm taller than me!) he has accepted the fact that this is the only way he can get his life back, reduce his weight and start being a 12 year old boy again.

I need to ring the doctor Monday morning, he was going to try and have a bed ready for him for Monday......

When he mentioned lap band surgery my heart soared with a 'YES' although I didn't let it out.
I never thought they would consider it for a young man, and I know in my heart also that I have tried EVERYTHING to help him and so has he - and none of it has worked.....

G
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George Update...

I just called the vet.
Spoke to Kim, a vet at the surgery that I know well - which helps 'cos she is brutally honest.
They gave him IV fluid overnight,
and he managed to 'wee' which means he doesn't have a blockage,
so is most likely a UTI.......

I need to ring back at 2.30pm......

Tears of relief...............

Someone's going to get SPOILT tonight............

G
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Poor Georgie........

My baby is sick.
I had to take him to the vet last night.........and leave him there.......
He has either a urinary tract infection or a blockage.
Poor little fellah, he was so uncomfortable yesterday......

Gee I hope he's o.k.....

I'm worried......

Will ring at 9.30am and see how he went last night.....

G
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.....Migraine still......a week later.......can't look at the monitor for too long, or it gets worse.......

Hopefully will be gone soon.

Hope everyone is o.k.

G
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