~Distressed....distraught....whatever~

I was going to do Small Man's leavers function post tonight

But a few other things came up when Big A got home from work

He wants to move (again) to the mainland

I don't


I did however reveal to him my true feelings about my job and the misery I have felt with it - but we both know it has to be for a while - I am not physically or mentally up to doing anything else - and I am needed here (at home).  That's not the issue - I do this job or I do no job and we can't afford to do that at present.


He seems to think we are in a rut and that nothing is keeping us here


My home is my security


Knowing where everything is and being in familiar environment is my security


I may not see my friends every day but we talk on the phone or online (and yes I know I could do that from anywhere in Aus)


He is concerned about Possums lack of interest in socialising - moving would just make it worse

Small Man has just gotten comfortable enough with the idea of college (mostly cos he knows he will have AJ there for the first year) that we went and enrolled him there for next year today.....


I understand he wants a change in work environment but jeezas I think I have been through enough turmoil with the kids and work and whatever to do the second most stressful thing on the list of stressful things - moving house - let alone to another state 

I do believe a major part of my sleep problem is stress and not letting out how I feel about things.  I am putting on more and more weight while eating less than 1000 calories most days which is ridiculous

Anyone with any visions of me moving in the near future please let me know
I like to be forewarned about these things


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