~Ahhh The Ebb and Flow of it all ~

I am far calmer than I was last time I posted

Old wounds can tear open sometimes

Without warning, without a 'reason'

They just do

I suppose things have been pretty out of the ordinary lately

So it shouldn't surprise me

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Barney has been in and out of the black hole

He won't let anyone comfort him during these episodes

The best we can hope for is that he rides it out ok

And hope will all of our hearts that the next episode is a long time away for him, even though the reality is it's never far away

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I have been reading up on the use of cannabis oil for treating Lyme, depression/anxiety, pain etc

I haven't made any decision on it

But have read some pretty amazing things

From real people

A girl I went to school with attributes it to her survival from 2 different rare types of cancer

Food for thought

I am open to anything that doesn't hurt anyone else

I could add that to my list of highly controversial decisions ;)

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I am BATTLING on Zithro

I hadn't expected such weakness, such fatigue

The muscles twitches/spasms are worse

The joint pain....oh......

I crash HARD on this stuff

I need to cut it back a bit to be able to work

But it can work well being pulsed, I believe

So I'm doing that


Our doctor is having open heart surgery this week :(
If you are the praying type, please spare one for him
He has helped so many

There is no-one else to look after us until, hopefully, he returns
Something else to worry about :/

xx G xx