*Major Whinge Alert*
I'm not sure who I think I'm trying to kid,
seriously.
I've been really, really struggling for the last few weeks,
I mean barely getting through the day type struggling,
going to bed freezing and waking up sweating.
For the last few weeks I have fallen asleep on the couch for an hour almost every day, I start out o.k. but wear down rapidly in the afternoon.
It may sound easy - go to the doctor.
But it's just not that simple.
I'm trying to hide it from everyone and failing.
Even hiding it here, which is not what it's supposed to be about - my blog is a journal of my life, my children.....and everything else in between.
Don't worry, I get just as bored writing about it as you would having to read it.
Last year some time I found I had a lump a few inches above my hip - my GP had a look at it and felt it was muscular, but if it was still there in a few months he'd get it scanned - I forgot about it and felt it there again a week or so ago.
It's still there, and actually worse.
Harder to feel because my gut is so huge at the moment - I can't stand the sight of myself.
I have put on more weight but I'm barely eating.
There is no way they can try and say this is stress or depression because I have very little stress in my life at the moment,
Small Man is doing well at Distance Ed,
Big A is back on shift work so I don't have to do absolutely everything around here day in and day out,
Z17 is on holidays and has a plan for next year,
and not to mention the biggest stress factor EVER (the Almighty) moving away - and my work is going brilliantly as a result.
Yes, it's a simple matter of making an appointment - but if I get blown off it means I just have to keep suffering and trying even harder to hide it.
It's the mental hurdle I'm having trouble with.
But I do know I can't physically continue like this.
I have too much to do.
*sigh*
G
xx
p.s. We cracked $60,000 in sales for week 49 - looks like we'll be getting that party
9 comments:
Right. You are going to make yourself an appointment with my doctor over here. She is BRILLIANT and she doesnt just rush you in and out. She was in with Amy for 45 mins last Wedensday. She takes the time to discuss anything with you, she will order tests if YOU ask for them for your peace of mind, and most of all she listens to what you are telling her. Text me for her Name and make the appointment. Not scaring you here G, but something is not right and you need to be looked at. TEXT ME!!!
xoxox
Toni ~ Thank you xxx
G
xx
Why you keeping to yourself,
why don't you tell your hubby??
Get your behind to the doctors immediatly madam. The worry of it will just make you feel even worse. Get it done. xxx
As I read the 1st part of your post, I immediately thought depression, as it is very similar to what was happening with me.
Look after yourself, hope you find out what it is all about.
((Hugs)) and healing.
Anonymous ~ I feel like he's sick of hearing about it to be honest
Chelle ~ Have made an appointment - my doc is away until the 29th December though - if I feel any worse I'll go see Toni's lovely doc
Widdle Shamrock ~ the whole depression diagnosis is what has put me off going to the doctor - the first time I was told I was 'depressed' they found I have an arrythmia, the second time I had ruptured ovarian cysts, the third time I was told I have Lupus (still not sure that's right but anyway). I even went on antidepressants for 12 months the third time to prove and point (and because not being taken seriously WAS making me anxious and down!) - and nothing changed physically. My GP now is very good, he doesn't think it's all in my head I just have a real issue with going to the doc for 'not obvious' things.
Thanks everyone,
I'm onto it now - just needed a push, and to write it all out and gather my thoughts,
G
xx
Just have to make a comment, G.
you may very well have yeast problems. This grows EVERYWHERE...
I read a Hub on "How to flatten your tummy and end food cravings" by Kelley Eidem. I'm following the same regime he does and so far it's cleaning me out. To find out if you have yeast problems do this yukky exercise... have a glass beside your bed so that when you wake in the morning your spit in it!!! Don't even swallow. So that all the nasty bits are still there.
IF there are strings coming down or it goes to a cloudy heap on the bottom or has specks in the middle of the glass, it's a positive.
Also... if you eat/drink anything with aspartame sweetener it can give you lupus or MS symptoms.
Good luck and bloody get better, Girl...
OOOOXX
Dell.
I have had the same doc for 19 years. Sometimes for "not obvious things" I feel i bit rushed or that I'm a loony. I finally decided to get a 2nd opinion recently and my anxiety was warranted. Don't take any prisoners.
Get onto it and love yourself big! xo
I didn't know you were having such a bad time of it, I feel so bad for you. I say this because, with my food issues I was so sick and got no relief and no one could figure it all out and in the end they just wrote me off as a whiner. No one believed me.
Unforutnately, doctors are made out of human beings. Unfortunately.
Post a Comment