Thank you so much everyone for taking the time to comment on my last two posts.
I am so grateful for the support I receive here I can barely put it into words.
Big A and the boys have been wonderful.
The don't seem to mind that I have spent the last two days in my dressing gown playing mindless games on facebook.
I'm trying to pull myself out of this.
I have to.
I feel as close to breaking as I have done in many, many years.
It's my big boys 18th birthday on the 22nd June - we are having a dinner with family on the 26th, and the party on the 27th.
Big A's parents will be here on the Friday, also my Grandma is coming up from Hobart for the family dinner (I think the party may be a bit much for her).
My boss is coming over tomorrow afternoon from Victoria - I will see her Monday, Tuesday night, Wednesday and possibly Thursday morning.
God I hope I'm over crying every time I talk about the work 'thing' by then.
I think it may just be the straw that is threatening the camels back.
Me being the camel.
The last few years have been pretty rough - and this feels like the icing on the cake, even though it's not the end of the world I know how very difficult it's all going to be.
Also, when it comes right down to it - I have be selfish, take from others and look after my own needs for the first time - just so that I have a job.
It's just not how I operate.
So I'm just going to try and focus on the good stuff.
I have decided I am going to give this new structure 6 months from when it officially starts.
if by then it's not worth my while I will look for something else.
I was surprised yesterday - I had a look on one of the job sites and found quite a few I could apply for.
Ten years has given me more skills than I realised.
I'm just not ready yet.
I need the flexibility I have now.
SM needs me here.
Love to you all,
G
xx
7 comments:
You are most welcome, G.
Your plan sounds like a plan! Good luck, love.xx♥
Good plan!
Play on Bookworm instead, it's addictive fun ;)
s-h-i-t-t-y.
bugger, do i feel bad for you.
it's said that change is eneviable. change with the times or wither and die.
cold comfort when you're comfortable as you are and it's working for you.
i wish i had a magic wand, i'd wave all your problems away.
Total Facebook addict here too..
We have an 11th birthday celebrated on 27th (Celtic Lad is 11 on 29th)
Saying "Hang in there" sounds a bit trite, and when you feel everything is falling around you, I do wonder if it holds any encouragement.
But hugs and calm, peaceful vibes are being sent from me to you.
Hi Gina, sweet..
Back home again! Bloody Hell, girl. I go away for a while and look what happens in your back yard..
I can't seem to get the words out that I want but I want you to know that I care for you and wish you only the very best. keep your chin up and look for another job.
love,
Dell.
YOU are not your job. YOU are a warm and glorious woman any employer would be lucky to have in his/her employ and grateful, once the employer became aware of who and what you are.
Your job is not YOU. You can do anything you want to do - anything you put your mind to.
If this organization you're working with is putting you in a position where you have to ignore the needs of others - that may be what you HAVE to do - but is that what you WANT to do? Is this the company you really want to stick with?
bumming around on face book is a perfectly legitimate form of therapy donchya know?
Hope you are feeling better about it all soon. Sounds like you've had a really shitty time of it.
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