Exactly 7 days to go until the big announcement is made to my managers regarding the new work changes.
I'm dreading it.
I am still majorly upset by the whole thing.
I am trying my hardest to find some positives in it all - but there are very few.
I have decided we should meet here, at my house, rather than in a public venue a) because of the noise factor and b) because of the 'me getting upset' factor.
So I am cooking dinner for us - well it may be the last time we meet formally in our current roles.
I have pretty much shut down over the last few weeks.
I changed my delivery from weekly to fortnightly for the next month at least - to give myself a break before I have to take on a huge team again.
I am really afraid of burning out - I think that is what is behind my reluctance.
I have done all of this before - worked with a big team - it's exhausting.
I have a way of looking after each of my team that is difficult to achieve with large numbers.....
Oh well, we'll see how it goes........
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8 comments:
I hope you can find a place of peace and faith in the lead up to this as things are sure to work out to bring you the best possible outcome for your future.
Wendy ~ Oh thank you :) you always leave such beautiful thought provoking comments :)
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p.s. I thought about your comment on this subject last time, and I remembered something the owner of the company said to me last time he was here...it's got me thinking!
I'm sorry the work situation has you so worked up. If it makes you feel better, I am also terrible with change... I just dread it, but then eventually I get into a new routine and it always works out fine.
it sucks.
but hey, you've grown, learned, experienced.......maybe this will be a walk in the park for you.
if not.....if all else fails -
cut loose,
vamoose,
skidattle,
hit the road jack,
ya can just quit and to hell with it all.
Can you split your team and give someone something like an assistant's position? Teach that someone how YOU manage a team - take a little of the responsibility and share it with another.
Evil Twins Wife ~ Thank you, glad I'm not the only one ;) I'm sort of o.k. with good change.....
Warriorwoman ~ It sure does, and yes there's always that option...maybe...just not yet.
Lou ~ That's just the problem, the change has gone from me having assistant managers, and my teaching them to lead for many years, only to lose them and what they have built - to going back to working solo with much less to work with and no opportunity to promote anyone...
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I hope that all of the people you have to break this news to are very understanding of your position in it all and that some of them are able to help set your mind at ease about how things will change.
hugs
Mistress B ~ Thank you, I hope so too I really do. This is the biggest thing I've had happen in 11 years. Difficult to try and deliver something in a positive light when it totally sucks for yourself.
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