Was going to post properly but I can't really find the words at the moment.
A death in the family (it's ok we weren't close) and a great deal of unrest that has followed.
Finding out that my 'place' isn't really my place, and feeling like I don't actually fit in/feel like I belong with any of the families, despite being the only one to accept/be the bridge between step families and actually TRY.....
My SF is behind most of it, and his mother (technically my Step Nan) just died (she was 89, it was expected) so it's not really the time to bring it up.
He is creating a division, and I think he knows exactly what he's doing.
Playing favourites with the kids, ignoring me but still speaking to Big A fine........
We are all being played off against each other, me against my brother, me against mum etc etc
he is trying to drive a wedge in there.
It makes me miss my Dad so much more, I actually cried talking about Dad in front of Big A, my brother and PB tonight.....haven't done that in a while.
I have cried at least once every day for the last week.......
He is just about to create a shit storm over his mothers will (cos he's all about wills and money and shit as you know from previous posts) with his sister......
Christmas is going to get interesting.......
G
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6 comments:
You have a family to belong to right here. You have people who love, honor and respect you right here. You never need to feel alone. Not ever.
Just try to hang in there and enjoy the rest of your family.
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When the fuck is any of this shit from other people going to stop???
What an arsehole. At least you aren't too closely involved with his plans.
Can't your mother see what he is?
AND what will happen when she passes?
Brace yourself now 'cause it will be a dirty, bumpy, dusty road he'll take you down.
I feel your pain [as they say] this time it is true.
Lay some traps for him. Play with his mind. Beat him at his own game.
No need to publish this comment, sweetie. I am so cranky at this upheaval that i just had to let you know i am with you, big time in my thoughts.
love,
Dell
We love you, G.! But I know EXACTLY what you are talking about...in my family, it is all of them who pit everyone against everyone. Christmas for me is HIDEOUS.UURRRGH.
Lou ~ That's so lovely, thank you so much xx
Michelle ~ I'm trying....I did get to spen time with my step brother and his wife (who I adore) which was nice.
Dell ~ I have no idea :(
I think she can, but....
I plan to - he he!
Thank you so very much, my head is in a bit of a scramble at the moment....
The cake has been made with him and I....all it's going to take is the icing....
G
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Natalie ~ Thank you so much. What is wrong with people???? I'll never understand it.....
G
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