~ Normality-ness~

I'm going to have to assume this is normal

The way I have felt for the last few weeks

The swinging emotion of the whole situation

Trying to appear 'the same'

Dealing with it

Staying on top of everything else at the same time

You would think I would be 'used to' all of this by now

I'm not

It's new disappointment

It's new frustration

It's new fear

Every. Single. Time.

Every new tried and failed 'cure'

The discovery of new complications


The knock backs


The set backs


The delays


The worry

The grief

That feeling of seriously not giving a rats arse about anything else.....

He is handling the whole thing so much better than I am.
When he is up (out of bed) he is in good spirits, mostly.
If you saw him between 3pm and 10pm you might almost not realise that he is any different if you didn't know him too well.

*sigh*

G
x♥x

p.s. Surely I could just sit here all day every day in my dressing gown?